im crushed
im falling apart
so much faster then i thought i could

a part of me had been made up of you
alot of things around me
had been given by you.

i go to my bed, i see my toys, i cry
i go to my dresing table,
see the handmade flowers i cry.
i go to my closet, see your jacket, i cry

now i know i how its feels like , if your gone
i miss the old you
i want to let go but i cant
absence do make your heart fonder

once, something is gone,
then i realize how precious i means to me

to that person who means the world to me
this is for you
watch and listen well.







please dont forget.

please dont forget about us

SUPER HECTIC WEEK!
i never had a super hectic week mann.
this week, i had no life
i didnt went online
update my blog or even go out.

haha, so im a nerd. hehe
but tmrw im going to JB!
YAYAYYYAY! but kind of bored of
it already, cause i just went last week
hee. but im excited cause i can get
to buy the eye shadow im aiming for.
heheeee.

today is also photo taking day.
i had to seat. i dun like to seat, i like to stand
so i was pissed off. haha.
then today, i dont know why
damian fell into the fish pond
and he was drenched!
i think he lost his balance or marvin pushed him

but poor him, he is all wet!

lastly im so happy that dearest was in a good
mood yesterday. he talk until very sweet sweet.
cause, poly had been tough for him lately.
3 test in a row and he is having trouble learning Amaths
because he didnt take Amaths during his sec sch.
had put him under alot of stress):

then, TODAY MY BESTIEE CAME EH!
hehe, i miss her. but the wentry+jcube was there
to pass my time in sch, especially Nasuha and Hafizah(:

i cant wait for my date with dearest this sunday
hehe.


i love love love love syimir(:

i told you so, i hate giving result day
it sucks. you know what sucks more
is repeating the uneasy feeling you get
everytime you get your result

and the dissapointment you feel
everytime you didnt score well
then you keep telling yourself that
i should have study hard, this that.

then when the next exam comes
you dun study hard. whats the use?
im like this.
and i had enough of feeling like this
i want to be like my boyfriend.
everytime he gets his result he know
he will do well. and yes its true, he does

i sometimes wonder how people can find the
motivation to study?
i cant, even if i say, for my boyfriend for my future
i cant. i need to find the spark
i need to find it really soon
before its too late.




again, i cant stop doing it.
im guilty. but guilty with pleasure
it feels so good but it feels so wrong
im lost, and i dont know what to do.
i hate myself for feeling this way.
i hate you stupid feelings.

TODAY IS CUPCAKES DAY(:

i've made small cute cupcakes
today. haha, with
chocolate icing and butter whipped cream
hopefully i can bring some to share with my bestie
and im so freaking stress about my result tmrw

tadaaa, my stress face(:

today, im posting the pictures
i took when i went out with bestie,
last month i think
im sorry it took so long to put up ):






in the toilet putting up make up

i am so guilty
tiffany, evelina, sara, rina, hafizah, farah and nisa
they are going to be so ahead of me
im not jealous
but i hate my lazyness.
i am so dead cause i have not even done my page 4
for my art
i hate art. no actually i dont
i hate the time set to finish the art.
gosh. i hate time.

im guilty for going out with dearest and play comp
and dont to art.
and again, i have to say, i hate time

make it stop

Labels: time

happy 1 year to me and syimir (:
haha, i couldnt go out with dearest today
cause he had school
which is so sad.
hehehe, i prepared my gift for him already.

i feel like the luckiest girl in the world
to be attached to my boyfriend
he is the best thing that has happen to me
he open my mindset to wider rage of things
and planted confidence in me.
he's there to motivate me when i dont feel like studying

i still kept his msg,when there was one time i feel
like giving up when i was revising my chem

he said " love, i love chemistry and i love you. so chemistry and
you are loved by me so dear must love chem cause i love chem.
you see the similarities you and chem have? "

i laughed when i read the msg, he is not good with his words, but
he knows how to make
me laugh. thats why i love him


that time i got into a fight with him.
i told him that he was being mean with me this days and i dont like it.
he soon realises his mistake and msg me this

he said " baby, i loveyou alot alot. hughug, kiss kiss. sorry,
im angry alot now days. i will try not to be.
i dunknow why also im like this. i dun know why i treat
the best girl in the world like this. youre the best you know. the bestest best
of the best girlfriend ever. i want you to teach me how to treat you like
a princess with a low budget. hehe. can? hughug kisskiss"

my heart melts mannnn. the msg made me laugh.
he know how to make me laugh when im angry.
i love it when he say he will take me away where no one can see us
then there's only room for both of us when i have a row with my mum.

i donknow what to do without him, he is my ladder.
without a ladder i cant reach the
next step of life. i know im so depended.


i dedicate this post to my super awesome boyfriend.
hope you guys read to sleep when
you read this long post(:

and and watch this music video. i think its so cool and romantic!








* yeah you belong to me baby.

i want to see my honey.
i miss him already):
haha, im so stress studying
while having flu.
which sucks alot. hahaha

andand i want to go out
shopping, eat good food and have fun!
I DONT WANT TO STUDY!

study sucks!


* 2 more days to my anniversary! (: